Rhynie~

The last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

Around this time tomorrow,
where will you be?
And who will you be thinking of?

You are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I’ll remember to the love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
this will remain a melancholy love song
until my heart can sing a new song

The paused time is
about to start moving
there’s many things that i don’t want to forget about…

tomorrow, at this time
I will be crying
I will probably be thinking about you… (who you will be thinking of?)

You will always be inside my heart
There will always be a place in my heart just for you
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
this will remain a melancholy love song
until my heart can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone again someday
I’ll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
This will still be a sad song
now and forever…

~First love~

　ヒカル

LOOK at them.. They enjoyed everything though all are simple stuffs…

Me,

I want a simple life

I want a simple friend

I want a simple feeling

I want a simple family

I want a simple fun

I want a simple happiness

I want a simple sorrow

I want a simple start

I want a simple end

I want a simple love

I want a simple broken heart

I want a simple task

I want a simple journey

I don’t want this complicated long journey anymore…

I don’t want to play in this big life theatre anymore…

I want to simply quit right now… But i can’t….

I don’t feel attached in my body at the moment…

I don’t feel like doing anything anymore…

But what should I do? I am still obligated to do many things…

*sad, unstable, confused, tired, bored* rhyn~

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to scream as loud as I could if only I could do it…

Alright, yesterday I slept around 2.30 a.m. after finishing my presentation slides which are so not strong argument… uhuhu.. I don’t care anymore

However, today I will have to present it in only 5 minutes. To think about it, this is such a waste time task. I had spend hour and hour to read, understand and put it into my slides, but now I am frightened to death thinking about presenting it. I guess will screw everything as usual in my presentation, I will start mumbling or lost points and shivering all the way. -.- I hate presentation, why should I do it? Why should I major in Communication Studies when I don’t have the ability to talk in front of people? one year has passed, I am still think presentation is scary.

I really hope that the 5 minutes of presentation will be just normal and smoothly flow one, people get my point and I enjoy share the case study. Whatever I tried to visualize positiveness of my presentation, I still feel my heart is shrinking and altering to its smallest form. My throat are being blocked by my fear…Everything in my head, my blood is running and bouncing all the way in my body, I feel very uncomfortable now… It seems that I am going to explode soon… huhuhu… my stomach is knoting and my eye is wandering beyond my control… :’(

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh… STRESSED…. I want to scream so that I can release all of those disruption!!!!!!!! Countdown to vomit them out… but how?

Practice? I did.

but, it seems that my whole body is doing bad when it comes to presentation… miehh!

RHYN~!!!