Rhynie~

At the moment, I feel like losing my passion for life once again…

I don’t know what I want to achieve… I have no idea of what I really want to be, when I will feel happy and satisfied, or who are they that I am sure are part of my life… my friends? my families? I don’t even know…

Time has passed so fast as I was late to realize that I have missed a lot of things… I has gave up so many things maybe, because I always don’t have a hundred percent certainty when I decide something…Maybe, I have abandoned myself because of the word "doubtful"…

August 07,

That day, I felt someone behave in that way. But, when I look again today, that way has changed… It changed until I couldn’t even recognized that people anymore, that person has turned up like a completely stranger for me. I am like not in the eye of that person, my brain frequently asked myself to think about logic that people can change for sure… But, I just can’t accept the fact that people could be so easily changed like that… As in I am not in this world… As in I never be the friend of that person…

Should I be the one who ignored u? or should I just pretend we are stranger? I am such a fool to think about why I should contemplating about the way I will react in front of u.. There is no need for that… I know,

Sad is my first reaction, angry came after that…

However, eventually I think I will be the stupidest one if I angry bcoz of that person.. I will spend the most priceless time if I kept thinking of what has happened.

Well, I don’t know what exactly I want to do with it.. But, I will try to focus on other more valuable things in this life… Maybe I just can’t find what I want… I don’t know what I want, that is the problem..

Then, wishing for something that I will never get is my hobby.. That hobby really make me get hurt all the time… I just can’t help it..

Wishing for someone doing something that I will never tell is also my favourite attitude… That will just draw me back into my black hole again, actually… Feeling so small in the heart…

Only if, someday I can know what I really want, what I really searching for in this life… That day, I will relieved…

Until that day come to me, I will keep living like this…

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Fruits Basket~

I was so happy when you smile
Your smile breaks through the clouds of gray
Not from the sunny days that life can bring
Awaiting the patience from the spring when the flowers can bloom anew again
Knowing there’s more beyond the pain of today
Although the scares from yesterday remain,
You can go on living as much as your heart believes
You can’t be born again although you can change
Let’s stay together always

Rhyn~

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