Rhynie~

Some people claimed that life is a wonderful journey,

some people claimed that life is merely one time,

some people maybe claimed that life is just a life…

For me, life is the proposinate mixture of those statements.

With some reasons, today I woke up late… and with some reasons again I feel like writing about my journey of life after my 18 years of journey.

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I woke up this morning around 10,* I woke up late again* , I rushed to shower, then planned every single task that I want to do today. But, eventually I haven’t started doing any of them up until the moment I wrote this.

Well, I have bcome a slacker since I came to Singapore. Seriously, I need to be punished like a child who I am used to. I am not proud of being so lazy or not doing something that I supposed to do. However, I just couldn’t help of doing everything that are not relevant to what I have planned… Then, my mind pushing me to think back then, when I was a little girl and I really feel so excited to write it in my blog.

10 years old small girl…

My mother~

I was in my Primary school back then, I was wearing white as top and red as skirt. Every morning, I would find my mother was preparing our breakfast, sometimes they were toasted sandwiches and milk, sometimes they were my favourite scrambled eggs. Although sometimes I would get scolded if I woke up late and haven’t took shower, but I really missed that moment. After finishing my breakfast, I would follow her to the market where she bought all things that in the lists for our dinner. She seldom cook for lunch since she is also helping my father to look after our shop. The moment when I could follow her in her back, walking through the crowds in market was so comfortable and protected. She would stop for a moment and asked what I would like to eat, she would buy me and my siblings some snacks or stationaries. She know out of her head what my whole family favourite dishes, and she would tell me, smile and said something like this, "Today, we will have ‘Gulai Ikan’, your father, aunt and uncle will really like it." In every dinner, we would have someone’s favourite dishes, we are so happy because she is really the best cook.

My father~

That day, I got my examination results from my main teacher. I was so excited to see how I did for that semester. I was so surprised that I got some bad marks, and I was afraid that someone in my family would scold me, either my father or mother. So, I daren’t to show my result to any of them. But, they finally know about it.

I started to cry when my father staring at my results. I promise that I would do better for the next exam and always be a good girl. However, what I’ve imagined didn’t happen. At first, he just complained about my result and told me to study hard. Then, he gave my support and said something like," If you do well and score 100, I will give you a present. For now, you should tell mom and she will be proud of this result, I guess." I stopped crying and he started to laugh at me. I ran to my mother and she said, "You are smart, so you just need to study hard, alright?" She pointed at one of my bad score and said, "You see this one, if you study hard it will transform 80 or maybe 100. But, you’ve done well."

*When I was back then, I missed the moment. Although I got scolded frequently like whe I faced my father angry face because I didn’t tidy up my room or when I listened to my mother lectures because I didn’t listen to what she told me, or when I quarreled with my siblings since I was the most stubborn.

I don’t say that I missed scolding or quarreling with them. I am saying that I always have the best moment in my life when I was back then. I have the most comfy feeling when I watched television together with them, when we went out for holiday together, when we ate our dinner together, when we face same problem together. If I looked at my childhood pictures, I can see smile around all of our faces, those childlike faces when seeing their children playing in the green field and those happy faces of us playing with one kite in the holiday. :)*

Now, I am 18 years old adolescence. Suddenly I am staying far from my whole family, living and doing things without them by my side anymore, facing trouble by myself, having fun without them anymore. I’ve never imagined that I will be here today. I’ve never know that I will be doing what I am doing today. I guess, my life has passed so fast and without my full consciousness of how it has been 18 years old.

I have no idea of what kind journey is ahead me. I am not so sure whether life is just one time, I don’t know if life is just a life. I stop to think about it just now before I started writing it. I guess, life is unpredictable. We lived in this life without ever know about our future, but we can still has a trip back in the past and treasuring our memories. That trip of past may give gratefulness of what you have achieved today.

~rhyn~

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