Rhynie~

Have u ever realized that God has given us brain and mind? 

Those are different in some ways and similar in others…?

God has given us brain to think…

He gives us mind to contemplate…

But, recently I found myself hard to be in the right mind to contemplate or in the left brain to think…

Anyway, it was just scratch of what I felt right now…

I’ve never imagined that one day like this will ever come again, when every words of people said, I’ve trusted wholeheartedly…

Not only once I’ve encountered this, it has been third or fourth time in my life. It will never be happened again ever! I promised at myself not to trust anyone that day, a year ago…

But then, I began to give a chance for my mind and brain to have the word of "belief" again.. I met a lot of people and I begin to share what "trust" in everyone that I know.. I give my mind a space to be able to believe in people, I let my brain to spell "belief" gradually.. Just before that day came again….

I remembered my mind and brain were unable to allow the "trust" go through them..

They have blocked every single door in my heart that made my blood burst into crystals of pain. 

I was exploded and trembled…

That day, no one hardly knew what was happening in this thin and quite strong body… I was quite sure that most people would judge I am at a "fine" condition.. which could be wrong…

Fortunately, I still have some people who were willing to help me out, help me to not think about what’s wrong with my brain and mind actually..

Thankfully, I still have my family… especially my mom who lend me her right mind to guide me out of my wrong sided mind…

Although those help me in some way, but I won’t be able to be the one who used to be in the past any longer… I may change, I may stay.. But, I will never be in any faith with human. Human is complex as I learnt. But sadly, I am still a human…

~rhyn€s~

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