Rhynie~

Halloo smua... ne versi indo yg pertama..

Napa tb2 pake bhs indo ya??

Iya ne, lg males pake english… kekny w ga bs ngungkapin dgn pas apa yg mao w ungkapin klo pake english, n ari ne w lg sebel n bosen ma diri ndiri ne… hahaha.. (tertawa tp ga ngerasa gembira.. ) emank da aneh mulai aneh seluruh soul w…

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Ari ne telat bangun n telat k choir practice deh.. kekny w maless banget utk bangun lagi, pengen tidur tuk slama2nya n ga bangun.. -.-

Capek n bosen dgn idup ne.. ga ada yg seru, smua terasa hambar n ga menyenangkan…
jadi teringat masa2 ketika SMA dulu, walaupun byk tugas n wkt bljrny lbh lama n melelahkan,.. w lebih enjoy di masa itu… Pengeennnn banget balik lage… tp rasany itu ga mgkn terjadi..

Waktu terus berlalu tanpa kita sadari, skrg w da berada di taon 2007 bljr di NTU n tinggal di hall 4… Pengen bgt ada masa2 sedih, senang, marah, terharu, semangat, capek yg bercampur dengan rasa yg sebenarnya di uni, tp entah napa keknya w ga bs mendapatkan perasaan gembira n sedih spt di indo, medan, Sutomo 1, IPA 2.. di sini.. NTU yg membosankan… tawar n hambar, senang serasa sedih, semangat tp serasa capekk banget.. bangga serasa merendah diri.. ga ada perasaan yg bisa membuat w semangat!!

apa karena w kurang menyibukkan diri? apa karena w ga tau gmn mencari masa2 spt itu di sini? w jg bingung… pokoknya w merasa ada perasaan yg sesak, sedih, kesepian, bosan dan lelah tiap kali w sendirian, atau ketika w di kamar, kantin… perasaan ini  sudah kualami saat  bbrp minggu w sampai di singapore, tp w akhirny bs ngatasin kekeringan mood itu…

sekarang, akhirny mood itu balik menghampiri w lg…
yahh.. kenapa jd desperate gt ya?
Tiap x mood itu datang..( kekny ga bs di sebut mood, lbh cocok ga ada mood.. datar.. hambar… kosong…)
w mutusin utk membuang jauh2 pikiran itu…
tp tiap x w berusaha,  itu malah mkn menggerogotiku… w  ngerasa w makin  "kecil" di dunia ini..  apa yg kuharapkan selalu tdk kudapatkan, malah apa yg tidak kuharapkan (walaupun "kadang" sesuatu yg "baik" bt w) malah muncul..
bisakah terus bertahan? 

apa yg bisa kukatakan pada diriku ndiri hanya,

YOSHHH!! USAHA! SEMANGAT! AYOoo!
JANGAN PIKIRKAN HAL ITU! JALANI HIDUPMU SPT BIASA! SIBUKKAN DIRIMU..! 
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…BERSYUKURLAH  KAU  HIDUP!
KU HANYA BERHARAP BISA MENJALANI HIDUP INI DGN SEBAIK2NYA…

Dans le passé 

Quand je
l’attends de tout coeur, prise les mémoires précieuses.

J’espère que je
pourrais encore me sentir reconnaissant.

Est-ce que je
peux avoir ce sentiment ?

Ai-je le
braveness à aller à lui ?

Finit-il avec
douleur ?

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Dans le présent

Maintenant je
sais les réponses…

Je me suis
blessé,

J’avais tort pour
estimer qu’il réclamera qu’il m’aime,

Je ne l’ai pas
détesté,

Je ne l’ai pas
blâmé,

C’était mon
défaut,

Je l’aime…

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Futur

J’espère que ce sera la mémoire dont je peux rire

puis…..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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                                                                                          ~Rhyn~ 

So, wad’s up everyone??

As you know Valentine’s day is coming… so, wad hav u planned for that day?

Post wad’s ur plan in the comment here as you want.. haha

Oya, then Dun forget Chinese New Year Festive also in week ahead.. Post ur resolution share together here..

THen, here is my plan n Chinese New Year Resolution…

V Days planning…
1) maybe wanna make chocolate? (not sure yet.. if i hav time to do it..haha..)then share with my friends… if they are not in diet..
2) then, hmm.. send V days greetings for my family, my childhood friends, n my friends.. wad’s make the difference? haha..
3)wanna be someone who have clear picture of which path of career i wanna do after my graduation or maybe which division should i take that is the most suitable for me..
4) That’s all i can think of.. haha

Resolution…
1)wanna do everything faster n properly… do my best!
2)wanna to change all my bad behaviour especially my Ms late comers title.. haha..
3)wanna to pursue happy days as many days as I can get in next year.. n share those happiness with my family n friens..
4)wanna go traveling.. haha
this one is sudden wish, inspired by my roomate who brought back brochures about holiday at Italy and France.. wahh so nice.. n i really ike the architectures that depicted in the brochure.. ^^
5)wanna wish that all our wishes will come true..

hehhe
Good luck n God Bless u…
~rhynie

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                        Is the answer in his eyes?
                        Is the answer in her smile?
                        Or in the words that you first hear her say
                        Is it in the nick of time?
                        First impression in your mind
                        Do you know it all in just one day?

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Artist: Stevie Wonder
Song: How Will I Know [duet with Aisha]
Album: A Time To Love

This is really a nice song and I really like it so much… the jazz feeling make the song flow in such a fuzzy athmosphere combine with enigmatic story of the song…

how will I know…

Hi.. Good day!

SO, how’s your day? Good…??

Well, actually these days aren’t my Good Day that I can enjoy.. But, still I put that title to CHEER ME UP…  Yuppy we have to cheer ourseves up when there is no one know how’s our feeling coz we are the one who know best…

Finally, I can relax for a moment since all my assignments and projects which all are due in this whole week have ended. This week was a really tiring week, I worn-out… But, at the very moment now I can rest on one’s oars… rest my back and brain for a moment.

Hmm.. however, my left eye is very painful, maybe because I use it too much… -.-
I still can feel like my left eye is going to go off its place… huee…

Actually there are so many things that I want to post last few days ago, but unfortunately I had no time to write about it. And when I am thinking to write it today, I cannot recall any of them… maybe just too tired to think anything…

Yeahhh.. whatever that I have had gone through last few days and today, I feel dissapointment with people arounds me, and I, myself… why can I be such a pesimist person? I am not suppose to behave in that way….

I will leave all those dissapointing moment and pesimist me behind… far away from today and future…

WAKE Up! Stand tall! U can Do it! 
I JUST need FAITH that is SIMPLY allows me to see what I want to attain even before I attaining it…

Today, I am just woke up.. n i really really… want to post blog b4 i can begin my day… >.<

yooo….. i can’t take it anymore…

what’s wrong with me???

yupp.. i can’t help with my own feeling.. sometimes i can feel like people cheated me, though as for those people, they never ever think they have done something wrong to me.. i don’t like this situation…

well, it have happened many many times before, but i am just want to talk about it today since i really can’t bear with "it" anymore… (-.-)

THere was once i really been cheated by my friend who pretended innocent all the time.. yeahh.. i dun want to have fight with anyone, especially my friend who i have known for quite long time.. so, that time I just stored that event in memory inside my brain.. i bear it n never say anything.. i keep telling myself, maybe it was not her fault, maybe i just too sensitive to think in that way.. or it is my fault?

AFter that incident, I was still a girl who always have simple and naive thinking… i think that someone who we regard as someone close to us will never do something that make us bad or sad…

but, i was wrong to think in that way…

after that, i still have those people who really close to me, just did something really make me hurt… although they might think it was alright to do that way, but they never thought that i am sensitive, i showed them that i am not.. but i am… i am not a tough girl that still can smile and laugh to whatever they do to me… i try to ignore what they have done and just let it go…

yeahh… since October last year I can still bear everything that make me sad with smiling and laughing at my own ignorance.. or maybe there was still a small hope that i still believe at what that people did to me which make me have "it" and "it" unconciously and hastily hurt me, was no one fault ..

but, i am learning from my own experiences.. that i cannot have "it" anymore.. i need to make up my mind and everything.. i can’t conclude something or assume something as i how think, although it is obvious, before "it" is really tell me it is… quite complicated huh??

yeahh i just don’t want to assume things anymore without attempt to find the fact.. i am sick of "it".. so, let everything that seem explicit to me are proven to be true by myself or others…

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woahh.. finally i can write it out.. although some of u or.. maybe ALL of u won’t clearly understand what i write.. haha that’s fine…

so, what i really want to say is that, don’t ever assume something before it is really proven as it is.. or we will just suffer because of our assumption..
in this case what i mean by "it" is really what i sick of……

<<NEVER ASSUME WITHOUT FINDING THE TRUTH>>~rhyn

Let me introduce a movie about love….
" Happy Birthday " should be something blissful for everyone.. but, in this story it show somber, and regret in some way..

THis is very sad story….

Yeah, though I never watch the movie.. My friend, Pohling told me the story line..

The story is about a guy who loves a girl… But, he never told the one he loves his feeling…

Every year, the girl receives Happy Birthday SMS greeting from the guy… That greeting make the girl cannot stop thinking of the guy, n wonder why the guy do that…

Until one year, she didn’t receive the usual greeting from the guy… why??

This unusualness finally revealed…

She found out that actually that is the guy’s sister that send "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" message every year to her… Moreover, she was told that the guy has died years ago.. N he was asking his siter to send greeting to the girl every year in her birthday because he really love her.. yet he didn’t want her girl know that he was sick and won’t live that longer that he think would make the girl feel really sad and sorry to him.. That’s why he made a decision that only made him and the girl feel even in deep misery and painful at very last…

The story ends..

My commentS:
I dun think that the guy should do in that way.. If he really love the girl then he should say it clearly.. N if he doesn’t want her girl feel sad n yet doesn’t want the girl know his true feeling.. then, he dun need to send those SMSes which just made the girl keep rembering and likes him..
In my opinion, the guy should say it clearly since that will make everything ends better.. think about it…
the girl will know everything without keep waiting and she can be support for the guy.. n the guy won’t live his left time in such misery condition…

Hi everyone.. how are u? hehehe..
just hav time to update it again…

Well, all of us are trying to do our best in our life..

yeah.. same here..
>try to make it out..
>>try to plan everything to run smoothly…
BUt,
Guess what’s the best I can do? I am just messing up everything that I hav planned properly.. why?

Coz I am just too slow… I hate myself who are just too slow, clumsy maybe?
I cannot fight to win the time.. If I can say I can’t run as fast as the time runs…
It doesn’t mean that I am too ambitious to win the race with the time, at least I am not left far behind.. That’s enough, for this moment… -.-

I know that it is impossible to run as fast as how time runs.. but, normally, people won’t be as such situation that make him or her is chasing for sth that already too far away… they can keep running at least somewhere behind the time which is still visible …

How to work it out? can’t I be just as me before? Why should I change??
too many thing have make me didn’t realize i have changed a lot… n I dun know whether it is a good or bad..
In my situation right now.. I guess it might be sth not as good as before.. -.-